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Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
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11:29 pm
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It's been a really long time since i've written in this. I just re-read the last entry of mine from January. Weird how things have changed- all for the better it seems though.
So my tongue had been pierced and i hung out with rik. I at the time didnt think anything of it. I didnt see him again until i went to get my helix pierced, and then the week before school let out came the fateful day. I went to get both my nipples pierced and had one of the best experiences ive ever had. He gave me his number again and not two days before i left roanoke, i spent the weekend with him- casually mind you. It was amazing neverthe less.
As it turns out, we've been going out since then, and its been the best two months i could have hoped for to end my freshman year on and begin a long summer with. He's an awesome guy, wants to kill chad (which is a plus in my book) and is teaching me how to pierce. His friends are good people and i can actually converse with them without the term "confederate pride" slipping into the conversation. It fucking figures though- i finally find someone and hes five hours away. O well- at least we dont get sick of each other. And it helps when youre forced to focus on what each other are saying rather than what we're physically doing to one another.
Mum's not too happy, being that Rik is also 28. I wanted to tell her to go fuck herself- michelle is 15 years younger than her. But instead, i calmly told her that i have enough respect for her and her lifestyle as well as the woman involved in that lifestyle- and that she should have enough respect for me to be with rik. Especially considering the fact that im old enough to make my decisions and that ive made enough gargantuan mistakes in this life to know what not to do. And i know he's not a mistake. I wish everyone could meet him- he has that cynical sense of humour which you all have grown so lovingly accustomed to through me. hee hee hee.
Anyway- ill be apprenticing under him and will possibly be working at the shop come the fall. i cant wait, i dont care about money in this case at all- i just want to learn so badly how to pierce its making me twitch.
Thats really about it. Im home until the end of august and i miss seeing you guys so give a ring or email whenever- amblouin@roanoke.edu is easiest. Much Love, i hope all is well.
current mood:  content
current music: Alice's Restaraunt
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| Thursday, January 27th, 2005
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5:27 pm
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So i've gotten my tongue pierced.
and in the process of that experience, i've possibly gotten myself an apprenticeship as a piercer.
and with that in mind, im hanging out with Rik this weekend. The guy who pierced my tongue. who is absolutly amazing and truely one of those awesome guys you just don't get to get wasted with every day. yay! the weekend should be fan-fuckin-tastic.
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| Friday, December 3rd, 2004
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7:32 pm
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| Monday, November 29th, 2004
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1:15 am
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* I didn't mean to scare any of you before. I will clarify this time around. My friend Caitlin, to whose mother ive been employed under at the barn through the last two years, was killed last saturday. She was speeding and wasn't wearing a seatbelt when she lost control of her car. Due to the age of the vehicle, it did not have an airbag, and she was through the windshield, killing herself instantly. She would have turned nineteen the next day, Sunday November 21st.*
so thanksgiving....
ah that special time of year where traditional bullshit comes into play. Yeup. Another one of those holidays, which i just love.
So let's see, how to begin.
Classes ended well, i only had two in which i needed to attend, so i actually could have left monday. However my brother is retarded and booked my flight for thanksgiving day. So i was stuck on campus for a day and a half.
Entirely alone.
I mean i was one of two girls in my entire dorm. My RA had even left the day before. It was ridiculous! lol. but very very relaxing. and i could get a lot of alone time (crying) done. no std ridden females fucking down the halls.
Anyway, Thanksgiving day-
8 am flight to charlott
went to transfer flights to sarasota and was delayed an hour
got to sarasota at noon, then ate dinner, with my dad and brother and some relatives ive never met. no love, no togetherness, just empty plates of bad food, and stale company.
The next day i biked 6 miles to the beach with my brother, and we saw three dolphins playing in the ocean. The beauty of them.
not even 34 hours being in Florida i had to go to the airport again.
My dad was crying when he hugged me goodbye. I hate to see him so sad
i know he's not happy or if anything, he's terribly lonely without my mother.
Flew to atlanta. Had a 2 hour delay and got a flight to BWI, where my mom picked me up.
I wasnt suppose to come home this break, I was suppose to stay in florida with my dad.
But Cailin died, and i needed to come home for her, and i needed to come home for me.
Her funeral was the next morning, where it very appropriatly rained. I didnt think i would be able to see her but her mom said that she was in the back room still. I saw Tally Stetinious walking out in the same physical state i was in and we gave each other a hug. And i went back to where she lay.
She looked like her, but she looked like a wax doll. It wasnt that she looked dead, it looked more like she had never been alive.
The ceremony was heart breaking, the minister was crying and struggling composser. But her mom said she knew cait wouldnt want anyone to be sad for very long, which we all knew to be true. But the ceremony was much needed for the closure of the sudden ending of a friends life.
This week has been long and trying, another to add to that evergrowing list. I miss my friend dearly and i worry for the others at home who are so reckless with their own lives at times.
please dont make me have to come home again for such a reason. I dont think my mind or body could handle it.
Love to all....
current mood:  sad
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| Sunday, November 21st, 2004
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2:39 pm
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kate was driving home and she fell asleep
she died. crashed her car.
i just want to come home. i just want to say goodbye to her.
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| Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
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1:00 am
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KICK ASS!!!
IM GOING TO GO SEE BELA FLECK AND THE FLECKTONES AT VIRGINIA TECH ON THE 2ND!!!!!!!!!
IM SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!
current mood:  enthralled
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| Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
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10:43 pm
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i had a dream last that i was pregnant. I dreamed i had a miscarriage. it was so sad. and so..... confusing.
current mood: sad
current music: garden state soundtrack
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| Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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12:11 am
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Ah, fall break was awesome.
I got to see all of my friends and was able to hang out with some close ones. Even was randomly lucky enough to see Ellie as i was filling my car with gas, for the ride home. Yay!
I finally got some money because they let me work a night shift at the bar. Which also kicked ass. Got to see alot of my drunken old men friends and the regulars.
Went to a bead store in baltimore, learned how to crochet, and was able to sleep in nearly every day. Also, had the opportunity to ride my horse, which was so theraputic. I miss being able to do that.
Weird thing however, was the repeating coincidence of seeing not one, not two, but three of my x-boyfriends in the span of this week. I passed Bobby while i was driving and he waved at me. I avoided Chad at Maryland Line (just barely though, i think he saw me, ah!) And then hung out with Chris on Friday and Saturday.
It was odd, just very odd.
The hiatus was nice though. I dreaded coming back to school. People here are preppy drunk assholes and are no fun to hang out with. All they wanna do is fuck. Theyre like god damn STD ridden rabbits.
blah, enough bitching, ive got some contemplating to do. hanging out with a particular person this weekend has created some interesting circumstances. I dunno. Too much too think about in too short a time frame.
It was great to see everyone again. I hope to be back up for the fall show!
current mood:  hopeful
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| Friday, October 8th, 2004
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4:58 pm
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YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
I GOT MY TRAEGUS PIERCED!!!!!!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!
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| Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
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9:57 pm
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A girl in the theatre production today was bit by a squirrel.
it was the funniest fucking thing i've ever seen.
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| Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
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1:59 am
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Not that many of you care- but i personally am tired of the bigottry....
In a email addressed from my Aunt:
".... Speaking of Grammy and Grandpa, they we sooooo sad they didn't get to see you and your brothers this weekend. I hope you and the boys know that. She and Grandpa had really planned on it but it sounds like your Mom had OTHER (*other was actaully italicized and underlined but it didnt copy over*) plans. They had hoped you could have come to Aunt Mary's but you Mom said you'd be too busy. "
Now, please understand something. My grandparents were invited to come visit us this weekend with open arms. However, when they asked if michelle would be there, and then received a yes she would be, they promptly and harshly declined the invite. That is the truth of the matter.
Now, please understand one more thing. I do not stand for intolerance, especially when it comes to my mother. Thus, i quickly responded to the above email, with a few words of my own:
"Dear Francie,
I regret not being able to see Grammy and Grandpa either; it would have been nice to see them again after so long. However, I believe that you have misunderstood the happenings of this weekend.
To my knowledge, my mother invited Grammy, Grandpa, and Mary to come visit us. Though because of a particular circumstance, those invited rejected the invitation. Now, what confuses me, is the mixed information I’ve just received from you. What perplexes me more, is the intolerance shown towards my mother’s newfound lifestyle which promotes her piece of mind as well as her happiness. Her happiness, in turn, gives her children happiness. At least it does to me, I cannot necessarily vouch for my brothers, but being that we are a close family, I believe they will agree with me.
I understand certain family members feel we have been “traumatized” by this experience, however the divorce was a greater concern for us. As I’m sure you know, divorce is painful, in and unto itself, and it is a wonderful thing to have the support of one’s family members to make it though that experience. From what I gathered and observed, my mother was left to deal with this painful event without too much support from her own family, aside from her own children.
I couldn’t be more pleased that my mother has finally found someone who will not undermine her abilities or degrade her personal aspects. I’ve always known you to be a caring and concerned aunt and I’m sorry to have to retaliate in such a way- but it has become necessary at this point.
I’m tired of watching my mother cry over such close minded indifferences. She has been hurt enough from the divorce. I’m sorry if you disagree with the choice my mother has made and I wish you could open your heart to her. We love our mother, we love our family, and we love our additions. Michelle has been an outlet for my brothers and I, both supportively and culturally. Once you’ve set your differences aside, perhaps you will see her the way we do- as a wonderful person.
Take care
Love,
Adria"
I'm tired of the bullshit and anguish theyve caused my mother. If she has anything to respond with, I shall receive it with an open mind, and then proceed to bitch her out.
I just wish the hate would go away. I wish the biggitry would stop. I wish they could accept her for who she is, like a good little catholic is suppose to.
I need sleep, i've had enough.
current mood:  enraged
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| Monday, September 27th, 2004
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4:52 pm
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So what could be better than having my earliest class be at 10:10? Living in an area of Virginia thats so prone to flooding they cancel all classes. I slept in until 2 oclock this afternoon. Yay for college!
And it took me three weeks but i finally found a "special" friend who isn't a sketchball/stretch pants tweeker (as my brother says). His name is Jarred and he's a senior who showed me all the backroads two nights ago. I love being able to go out and do something constructive at 4 in the morning. We got along very well and had many discussions due to the fact that he's a philosophy major.
I'm coming home again this weekend. Nathan is coming back from london and i havent seen my brother in nearly six months. So it will be a big ol' reuinion for the Blouin children this weekend. I can't wait.
Going to go see Maria Full of Grace. There's an independent theatre 10 minutes away (which kicks ass) so i can be up to date on all the good films.
Love to all, hope to see some of you this weekend!
current mood: enthralled
current music: Nick Drake- Milk and Honey
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| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004
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10:48 pm
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so who wants to hear something scary?
i know all of you do.
Adria started belly dancing classes tonight.
yay for dancing again.
current mood: hopeful
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| Sunday, September 19th, 2004
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4:24 pm
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| Saturday, September 18th, 2004
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3:30 pm
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I came home to the most desolate and depressing home i could have imagined. Everything was taken by my father. Paintings, electronics, even the fucking salt and pepper shakers. The house looked abandoned.
But i was greeted by my most welcoming friend- Gooner. I love that cat, he ran up and started his greeting session with me. I was worried he would have forgotten his "special" pal since ive been gone. But he acted as though i had never left.
Amanda was the next person i was reunited with, horray for being able to see each other even with our seperate college lives. And horray for my kickass birthday gift! THANKYOU AMANDA! Mom came home next, then Maggie, then Aaron. It was good to see everyone again.
I went to the bar the next day and gave my regards to all the regular drunks. It was nice to be remebered and loved, even if most are kinda dirty old men, they mean well.
I was able to see Darrick and Kristen too- which led to some swell times. Then spent the majority of my night with Dave. I have a completely new found respet for Slipknot. Any band that can order a whole audience in London to sit down and then jump up in a huge throng on cue deserves some notability. Not to mention their drummer is one of the best performers i've seen. Awesome.
However- the driving this weekend certainly kicked my ass and buried it into the ground. 5 hours home, 5 hours back. Only one day to spend with loved ones in between.
Oh well, i get to do it all over again in two weeks because NATHAN IS COMING HOME!!!!!!!YAYYYYYY!!!!! I havent seenhim in months.
Right then, im going to get some sleep, i was up too early for a weekend. Love to all, take care.
current mood:  exhausted
current music: Rage Against The Machine
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| Sunday, September 12th, 2004
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11:38 pm
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Im coming home this weekend.
Kim desprately needed to see alex and im the only one here with a car. It will be nice to see my brother though. Shits been going down at home. Apparently my mother keeps threatening to call the cops on my dad who slipped out and away to florida last wednesday.
Yea, been one of those weeks. I still like college. But i realize that i will have to transfer once my core credits are over and done with. They just don't support anything even remotely close to my major here. I think i'll be transfering to a school in london, Bournemouth University which is nice because its on the beach and if Nathan continues to live in London ill only be a train ride away from him.
I kinda regret living in an all girl dorm. Its hard meeting guy friends around here. And i miss having those, theyre easier to tell things to and actually seem more understandable at times.
I'll see how things go. Kim is homesick for alex and it makes me wish i had someone to be homesick for. Can't win i suppose.
Dammit, i just realized all my music is on the computer that dad repossesed along with the paintings, and the priceless kids toys that meant so much for my mom. Fuck him and his intention to destroy our family. Fuck him. I hope the hurricane destroys his perfect bubble of indulgence and selfishness. Fuck him.
current mood: i dont know anymore
current music: garden state soundtrack
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| Friday, September 3rd, 2004
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3:05 am
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I've just joined the intrumural Dodge ball team.
yes thats right, i get to play dodge ball every friday competetivly.
Best part is, we start playing at midnight and go until about three in the morning.
I love this school! Our coaches are awesome!
current mood: quixotic
current music: radiohead
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| Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
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6:33 pm
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im finally here. im finally settled in. im finally in a new life. WOOT!
i've met some awesome people here. everyone is so friendly, especially the upperclassmen, which was surprising.
The other night a bunch of random people got together at the park across the street and played. we went down slides and pushed each other on the swings. However, nothing could have topped the night like the competitive game of Four Square that went on. I kicked everyones ass for 27 games in a row. Now when some of the sophmores pass by and say hi, they usually follow it with 'four square queen'. it was awesome. im in college but can still kick ass on the court.lol.
today roanoke had a poster salesgroup come and sell millions of different posters at really cheap prices. i got a bob marley, jimi/lennon/morrison sketch painting, and a graphic design poster for a total of $9! yay cheapness.
my classes and schedule are amazing. My english class was combined last minute with a crime and punishment class which the teacher doesnt even want to teach, so we're basically going to just discuss and debate the laws of this country.
French is interesting because they placed me in a ridiculously low class and my origanl teacher got into a car accident this summer. Our new teacher is from france and has only lived here 4 years. her accent is sooo heavy no one can understand her. but she's really sweet and asked those whove had upper level french to help explain to the class "what the hell i'm talking about".
My two favorite classes however, would have to be greek and archeology. I have to not only learn an entirely different alphabet for greek, but also how to write it. its hard but enjoyable. My archeology class is by far the best. We talk about everything im passionate about and get to go on digs and do labs on our findings. the teacher is enthusiastic and im really excited about it! YAY!
its nice having kim, nicole, and katie braide here. theyve made the adjustment even better. we go our seperate ways whenever but its nice to come here knowing someone. I love being able to sit around campus and smoke my cloves to. My RA and i hang out alot which is awesome, and ive ended up bumming some cigerettes out to upperclassmen. good times though, theyre a great bunch of people.
im signing up for a guitar class now, and possibly mandolin classes later, i'll see how it works out.
Love you all! Your welcome to email or call whenever you want!
current mood:  ecstatic
current music: KIll Bill Soundtracks
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| Thursday, August 26th, 2004
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12:28 pm
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I got my tattoo touched up! YAY! It looks better than it did before.
I also got to go with Amanda to get her tattoo, which came out looking pretty fan-fuckin'-tastic if i do say so myself.
It was a bit of a wait while her artist worked on her so i got a piercing. Yay for more holes in my skin. Body mutilation kicks ass.
I leave in two days. Two days until freedom. Most wouldn't think of going to school as freedom, but i can't wait to get out of here. I'm goinng to miss my friends so much, but i still can't stand living here anymore. Its time to leave.
I'm packing today, so anyone who wants to stop by is more than welcome.
I might as well stop procrastinating and do my laundry. The one aspect of packing i despise.
current mood: ecstatic
current music: new music from all kinds of people
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| Wednesday, August 11th, 2004
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7:31 pm
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I get my tattoo touched up in a couple weeks, which means i get to see Joe, my tattoo artist (kick ass). It also means i'll probably get something pierced while i wait. Hee hee hee. Ah the wonders of body mutilation/beautification. I love the feeling of the inked up needle in my skin. Its invigorating.
Im thinking i might get a good majority of my back done. If anyone has any intersting ideas for a mural or intricate design of some sort, im open to any suggestions, and monetary compensation will most definatly be given to anyone's design i use. I would love to have another of my friends creations permenatly engraved on my body, its the best way i can think of to support you guys in what you do. Not to mention youre all some of the most talented mother fuckers i know of.
By the way, might be having a large gathering before i leave, so that i can say goodbye to everyone. More details should be on the way, hopefully.
current mood: wonderful
current music: Muse
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